A Suicidal Attempt...

Long Never Ending Railway tracks.. Scorching Overhead Sun.. Not a single being visible.. Sounds like an ideal location to do the action mentioned in the title of this post... Well, I walked walked and walked on the tracks..A Living black creature was walking parellel to me at the other.. and not to much my surprise, I wasn't scared..Y Should I be..?? it was jus a buffalo..Dont we find plenty of it in India.. Not much vivid thoughts coming to my mind except-the kid that i met who constantly said "see you , see you", as he got down at his destination with his parents,how i arrived at the station early morning after the shivering bike ride,how me n my friend chatted for the major part of last night...JUST A MINUTE !!!! Should i be thinking of all the good and bad times of my life,the cherished ,the privileged moments - pertaining to the title.. Neways but that is all i thought.. Is it so necessary to think all the time.. y cant my mind jus sit still even for a moment... Is it the first experience of walking alone on the rail tracks or is it the fear that i know what will happen next...i continued my way with the heavy luggage.. i was not eloping.. I continued striding and thinking .. Finally i reached a location where i could see the local buses and autos... it was one of those overhead railway tracks found very commonly in calcutta at ultadanga, maniktalla n many more such places.. i stood atop and was trying to analyse which part of calcutta i was in.. suddenly people started yelling.. "nebe jaao(come down) ki korcho(what are you doing)" .. oh my God.. y cant these people of cal jus let anybody do what they wanna do.. I replied " haan neeche aa rhi hun( i am coming down)"..

Obviously i was standing there to come down only... what.???? even you thought the same as those set of people..that i was there to commit suicide.. NO WAY.... I may not certainly be having the best days of my life ,BUT i will (very soon-extreme optimism).. and i have no right to kill someone whom my parents nurtured with so much affection, whom my friends loved..and so many more reasons to not to commit suicide.. I was just trying to find a short cut back to my home in cal.. i ws already too late, It was 4 hours since i sat at durgapur stn for calcutta and was sick and tired of the train which stopped at evry other instant... and i had assumed that it would stop at DumDum stn as well.. so i wud get down n reach home early.. but the train jus went past by the Dum Dum stn and dint stop.. but then just 5 mins later stopped again.. No railway stn there in the vicinity though.. i had had enough.. so just thought of getting down and then letting this journey back home become an adventure.. After getting down on the tracks i had no clue how would i be getting home from there.. that is why i was jus walking on the tracks and wondering.. Newaz if i wudnt have found a way would have called my Dad.. But then very soon I saw the roads of cal.. n i realised that Ok finally i would reach home.I saw a bus which would take me to my place... but then my next step was hw to get down.. n the momemnt i was trying to analyse the path down which wasnt gonna be smooth either, These people startd screaming.... And I realised that they were thinkng that i was there for "A Suicidal Attempt"... This whole incident became quite a memorable one for me, i ended up narrating it to my friends and family .. some had a good laugh thinking of the hilarious interpretation of the crowd present there.. Others really scolded me hard for getting down of the tracks all by myself and then exploring the bizzare location... Well my parents had a mixed reaction ... they did laugh coz they were supposed to laugh as i was narrating it as an extremely weird incident that took place but being parents they also had to make me understand certain "DOS and DONTS"... I jus thot of blogging it down too.(as Its been quite some time since i wrote one..) thanks to a friend for the APT title..

cheers Sweta..